the many facets of emotion

Santa, santa, grant me a wish.

2008-12-23T22:34:00.005+08:00

I know it may sound absurd,
I just wanna celebrate christmas with you. ):

I miss....

2008-10-08T01:12:00.003+08:00

I miss Da Jie
I miss Er Jie
I miss San Jie
I miss Wu Jie
I miss Liu Jie
...
and i know all of you miss xiao mei too! ^_^

haha, i know its random, but who cares! :P

Keep Moving Forward.

2008-09-26T04:00:00.003+08:00

Recently, I've watch Meet The Robinson again. (:
Childish?
Don't think so.
Have you ever wonder that there are actually something special that
we're able to learn from every disney movie?
I've learnt alot from this movie.
No matter how tough life is,
how many times you've failed,
just make the right choices,
and KEEP MOVING FORWARD. :)

Perhaps, we're all growing too fast,
neglecting those little life lessons
that makes us a better person.
As we get older and older,
we tend to reflect more,
feeling more troubled.
Hai, no wonder Peter Pan never wanted to grow up.

Little Wonders - Rob Thomas
It's one of the soundtracks from the movie.
Nice song, meaningful lyrics. (:

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These little wonders still remain

Let it slide,
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine
Until you feel it all around you
And i don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by,
It's the heart that really matters in the end

Ohwell, I hope this is able to motivate me through
the upcoming few months of hectic schedule.
It'll be a tough journey.
This time, I'm on my own.
Out of my comfort zone.
It's time to venture out, and learn something.
I'm ready to fall anytime, anywhere.
I'll just be back on my feet, and try again. (:

Nothing's set on stone.
You've just gotta make the right choices
and keep moving forward.

little wanderers (:

2008-09-25T19:55:00.003+08:00

BOOYA!
Yesterday was both fun and tiring mans. (:
Intially, Junhao, Binhui, Yanci and I decided to ice skate
at Kallang Leisure Mall.
Soo yupps, we decided to walk instead of bus to the mall
from Kallang MRT, to save money. (:
Eh, no consession very expensive leh. Must save! =D
Oh man, do you know that the walking journey was so long?
Haha, bet ya'all didn't know!
Cause our 'organiser' led us to the longer route
instead of the way way shorter route. XP
neeways, I didnt know Geylang was located near Kallang. :P
Heehee, so the innocent me, that has never seen any 'chickens' before
pestered them to bring me to geylang, later in the night. >.<
But they refused.
RAHHHH. ):
So yupps, when we arrived at the mall,
we decided not to skate.
Firstly, it's because of the price.
It's kinda expensive, close to 20 bucks for just 2 hours of skating.
Secondly, there's only a handful of lil' kids in the rink.
And all of em' were PRO skaters attending lessons.
Soooo, we've decided not to mahlu ourselves, and to arcade a little
and have high tea buffet at Japanese Village instead. >.<
So yupps.

We started playing maximum tune 3!
Hahaha, it was both me and yanci's first time. :P
Very thrilling indeed.
Both of us considered quite pro liao hor. (for beginners (: ) LALALA~!
Next up, high tea buffet!
Hmmm, the food there was average though.
But, the service was horrendous!
With me and junhao around during meals,
there's bound to have drama. V(^_^)V
Sooo, this time we dared each other to soak sashimi into a cup of hot green with lemon and sauce and eat it.
Haha, so magically, the sashimi turned out to be half cooked and half raw.
It tastes pretty average. (:
So after our meals, we were so bloated.
And I casually suggested to walk to old airport road so as to digest our food.
Wahaha, mei xiang dao they so on. (:

Crapped alot during the journey. (:
And we reached old airport road, we realised that we were still bloated, and JH suggested to walk to east coast.
But the adventurous me, decided to walk further.
To Kembangan MRT instead. =D
Cause I didn't have any direct bus home from ECP. :P So we carried on walking and walking and walking...
started crapping alot, everything under the sun and moon.
Lives when we were cadets, ATCs, gossips, gossips and gossips. (: J
H and I even shared with them our lives as CIs.
JH even told them this,
'She's insane de, she eat bombs happily!'
Haha, I guess you know who she is bah.
Hmpf! :P
Under the 'great' guidance of JH, he brought us around broadrick sec, then to broadrick road, where all the bangalows are situated with nicey nicey cars and BIG dogs. Then to mountbatten road, cchms and many many other detours before reaching Parkway Parade's Starbucks, where we had our short lil' break before heading to East Coast then to Siglap Park Connector and finally our destination!
Kembangan MRT!
By the time, all of our legs were on the verge of dying liao. :P
3 hours of eating,
5 Hours of non-stop walking mans!
Moreover, we were in inappropriate attire okayys.
All of us were in tight jeans.
One word to describe this journey, ZAI!
V(^____^)V

Joke of the day.
We're talking about large and small intestines...
Me: eh. where do the shits store at huh?
Binhui: Anus
Junhao(says confidently): Girls where got anus?!
sooooo, who's the dumb one right now? :P

Happiness is a how, not a what, a talent, nor an object. (:

PIG =)

2008-09-17T20:11:00.007+08:00

I'm starting to get the feel of holidays.
Hahaha, today, I literally slept through
the whole day. =DDDD
Woke up at 1 for lunch,
continued to sleep till 7 for dinner.
and now, I'm WIDE awake.
It's been months since I slept this long.
and it feels sooo soooooo shuang larhs. ^__^
I LOVE MY PIG-ISH LIFE MANS! <3

Btw, I've got back my phone. =D

Way Back Into Love.mp3 - Hugh Grant & Haley Bennett

no, no, no repeating.. (=

2008-09-15T21:24:00.002+08:00

Results Day.
I'm happy, happy and happy! =DDD
HOHOHO, I'm pleased to announce that
FLORENCE DID NOT FORWARD ANY MODULES!
Yay-ness. ^__________^
but GPA's kns though. :P

results ]=

2008-09-14T21:25:00.002+08:00

Exam results will be out tomorrow.
Rahhh!!!
I don't know what to expect.
I need a little more luck than a little bit
to get me by this time.
): ): ):

Btw, my phone's temporary out of order.
So yupps, i'll be without a phone
for the next few days. XP

梁山伯与茱丽叶 (=

2008-09-08T01:53:00.008+08:00

Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Li Ye - Zuo Wen Xuan

This song has been in my head for days!
Kept on replaying and replaying. =D
Okayyy. I know this song is super duper old.
But nan de I like chinese songs. (=

WOOSH. Watched Camp Rock today.
The storyline wasn't that fantastic,
but the songs were great! ^_^
Next up, High School Musical 3! =DDD
Hahaha, call me chlidish or whatsoever.
I don't care. XP

rahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-06T01:14:00.003+08:00

'you will never be strong enough'
'you will never be good enough'
'you will not rise above'

I'm sick of all these shits.
I'm tired of proving you wrong,
Every step that I take will just be another mistake to you
Wth, I'm too tired of it.

I dreamt that Dr. yap told me that I've scored the lowest for the 3 core modules,
and I have to repeat my modules.
Is this a sign?
I'm scared.

Sad life. Geez, if only these problems can just shoo off!
I WANNA HAVE A HAPPY LIFE MANS.

Madness~!!! ^_^

2008-09-01T23:38:00.005+08:00

TODAY'S MADNESS MANS! =DDD
Went out with JunHao, KianHwee and KianKiat!
Everyone was insanely high today~!
First stop, Mt Faber SAFRA. BOWLING~!
3 rounds! ^_^
Only JH, KH and me played,
'cause KK wanted to save money for his armani wallet. BLEAH!
and as usual, i scored the lowest!
Stoopid kiankiat forever laughing at my FANTASTIC SCORE.
KH and JH scored 100+
and I scored 59 okayys!
quite a big acheivement for me liao hor!
Lalala~! XD
Hahaha, after that, we literally walk around the whole
telok blangah aimlessly for hours.
They promise to bring me go see choo choo train,
but all I saw was choo choo train's track.
RAHHH~! they bluff me! qi bian wo de gan qing!!!
We were sooo insanely high, laming and laughing all the way! =D
That I screamed and screamed,
laughed and laughed,
and sung 不要问我从哪里来~！
hahaha~! XD

Next stop, DINNER~!
Initially, we wanted to go to henderson market for stingray!
hahaha, because I have the sudden craving for it! =DD
But, under my great guidance,
we unknowingly landed ourselves in depot road instead.
haha, lesson learnt. Never trust a direction idoit! xP
Sooo yupps. We settled for Botak Jones instead.
The food was heavenly. It's a must try! =D
Hahaha, dunno why they gave us so much mustard and vinegar.
Tempt me and JH to create disastrous food and challenging each other to
taste it. :P
Mustard Fries!
Vinegar cum chilli fries!
Vinegar cum Mustard tomato!
And the final grand dish, Mustard cum Vinegar cum Ketchup cum Chilli SALAD! =DD
It was sooo sooo deadly that once both of us taste the salad,
tears kept rolling down our cheeks. XD

and we continued walking and walking,
crapping and crapping,
laughing and laughing,
zi-highing~!
不要问我从哪里来~~~~~！=D
Went to bukit merah's NTUC to buy some snacks.
Then to henderson market for SUPPER.
STINGRAY!!
YAY-NESS!! =DDDDD
even though we were very very full,
we ordered a large plate of stingray. (:
It was super uber delicious and SPICY!

Hahaha, then all of em' was kind enough to walk me to redhill.
Touched. (=
As usual, we crapped like crazy!
reminiscing about the funny moments of our cadet-life.
Unit camps, NCOPC, ATCs, zb's 'BUNNY SENJA-TA!', kk's fart~! XD

BTW, TAN KIANKIAT DID NOT SEND ME HOME.
He'd rather bus home!
Rahhhh~!! why why why?
He suffered from stomach cramp cum mouth cramp from all the laughters we had today. XD

'making me laugh CONTINUOUSLY for a couple of minutes and my mouth started to cramp + stomach starting to ache (not pain until nid to shit that type).' .... 'i laughed until my mouth cramp becuz her expression was super funny that whenever she talk,i keep laughing' -- KK's blogg.

I'm like their source of entertainment today lah. XD
不要问我从哪里来~~~~~!
不要问我从哪里来~~~~~!
hahahaha, although all the walkings has made Florence's leg ache but
Florence's extremely happy today! ^____^

Friends forever? (:

2008-08-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

In Five years time
I might not know you,
In Five Years Time
We might not speak at all and
In Five Years Time
We might not get along
In Five Years Time
You might just prove me wrong.

Yes, you!
Prove me wrong. (:

2008-08-27T02:28:00.002+08:00

So yupps, this is how unprepared doggie and me are for area promo. >.<
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.
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$$$ATM.D$$$HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 KIAN HWEE
ya duh
$$$ATM.D$$$HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 KIAN HWEE
already cut my hair liao leh
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Every secret moment, every stolen promise you believed-ڊ
LOL. i scared leh. i forgot all the advanced drills liao.
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Every secret moment, every stolen promise you believed-ڊ
>.<
$$$ATM.D$$$HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 KIAN HWEE
u tink i rmb meh i thought can depend on u sia
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Every secret moment, every stolen promise you believed-ڊ
hahahaha, SHIT YOU!
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Every secret moment, every stolen promise you believed-ڊ
you J08 de leh
$$$ATM.D$$$HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 KIAN HWEE
i oso nt sure wat i teach andy they all rite anot
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Every secret moment, every stolen promise you believed-ڊ
:P
$$$ATM.D$$$HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 KIAN HWEE
siao so wat
$$$ATM.D$$$HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 KIAN HWEE
i potential slacker
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Every secret moment, every stolen promise you believed-ڊ
curses!
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Every secret moment, every stolen promise you believed-ڊ
>.<

fireworks, no more. ):

2008-08-23T21:51:00.003+08:00

Woooosh.
Finally it's 2 months of holiday for me,
after all those demoralising papers!
For those who are curious of how disastrous my paper was,
don't bother to ask me, 'cos I've decided not to brood over it. (:

I missed today's fireworks. )=
Stupid phone, failing me at the most crucial point of time.
I kuku-ly waited for hours for kh's call to meet me,
without knowing that my sim card was not working. >.<
BAHH.

You made me laugh,
You made me cry
I don't know which side to buy
But most importantly
you make me love you. (:

Examssssss~!!!!

2008-08-18T08:59:00.004+08:00

Lalalala~!
I've not slept for the last 24++++ hours,
I've been mugging like a cow!
Shitt, I'm really going bonkers....
rahhhhh! :PPPP

WISH ME LUCK!
WISH ME LUCK!!!
I SURE DO NEED LOADS OF EM' =DDDD

):):):):

2008-08-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldn't be blogging at this period,
but heck, a short post will do,
to vent out all my frustrations.

Went down for unit training today,
it kinda made me realised how much my unit has deteriorated.
I can no longer feel the 'NPCC bond/spirit' within them,
but instead, the low morale of the unit.
The unit's low attendance rate, the sloppy movements of the cadets,
the attitudes of the NCOs.
It really pains me to see this happening.
It makes me start to wonder why are the cadets coming down for trainings
when they don't learn anything at the end of the day.
I tell you, NPCC isn't all about drills and campcraft.
It's something more than that!
It's about the bond that brings the everyone close together,
it's about imbibing the cadets with a stronger character and leadership qualities.
Have the NCOs done their job to fulfill these?
Have the NCOs learn something throughout their 3 months of NCO-ship?
Debrief-ed the NCOs, with a heavy heart.
hope that they'd reflect well on what I've said.

I'd still remember when JieBin ma'am asked us, CITs, why do we want to be a CI.
I replied confidently,' to repay my unit, to have my unit soar to greater heights'
and guess what?
I didnt live up to it.
A failure, I am.
I'm indebt to my unit.
It's time to repay.....

I feel like i'm being pulled down by invisible chains.

NDP & Carpark Duty~!!

2008-08-12T11:52:00.007+08:00

Oookayys, I've changed my skin.
Isn't it nice? (:
Let's do a little recapping eh? :D

08/08/08
It's not the Opening Ceremony of the Beijing 2008 Olympic that matters,
IT'S MY WU-JIE'S BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ZIYUN! =DDD

I'm sorry that I couldn't celebrate your birthday
together with the 6 sisters.
sadded. ):
Had AAR in the evening.
Hahaha, wasn't as bad as I had expected.
But, it ended super uber late,

11.30pm to be exact.
But whatever, I actually managed to survive through.
YEAH! Thanks to my bullet-proof shell! xP
lalalala~!

09/08/08
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY~!!!

After soo many weeks of trainings and rehearsals,
it's finally the real thing!
Did you guys see the parade?
It was awesome,
especially NPCC! ((:
GREAT JOB!
Did a lil' motivating to the cadets here and there.
Especially the cadets who were in Gate 6
and those that were selected to be reserves.
Remember what I've said. (:

Indeed, I've also learnt and experienced alot through
the past few trainings.
Both CIs and cadets,
sure do inspire and taught me alot, I swear.
I guess, through the harsh times I've experienced,
It really moulds me into a better person
and teaches me something I can't learn in school nor back in my unit.

10/08/08 - 11/08/08
CARPARK DUTY for nat's camp!!! :DDDDD
hahaha, believe it, it was the first time I did carpark duty,
moreover it's overnight mans! (:

Day1
Did my duty at Changi Beach Carpark 4.
Partnered with michelle,
and jy's alone. xP
Oh oh, did i mention that me and michelle had chairs,
whilst poor jy had to stand for hours. :DD
hahaha..
So yupps, me and michelle was stationed, sitted at the carpark.
Crapped and started whining a lil' :)
and yupps, manage to have michelle and jinyuan to stay overnight to pei their 'junior'. (:
I'm sooo touched.
Really, from the bottom of my...uhmm...errr....wait for it...ASS.
hahahaha! :DDD
but, yeah.
SERIOUSLY, IM TOUCHED! ^___^
Soo yupps, when our duty was over,
the CIs and FIs gathered at carpark 5 and started to crap all night.
Got to know them a lil' more. (:
and 50 percent of the night's topic was on ghost. -.-

but but, I was brave enough to listen okayys,
though i was a lil', just a lil' scared. xP

Day 2
Jy and michelle had to leave because they had lessons. ):
and yupps, me and eunice was sent to Expo
together with FI Kelvin to usher the participants
to board the bus.
and guess what?
I've met some of my cadets from NPAP and NDP. :DD
I'm surprised that those from NPAP could still
recongnise me. (:
and blah blah blah,
after ushering the participants,
me and eunice was sent back to carpark 5
for carpark duty again.
and at that point of time,
me and eunice was very very shag.
Only tg has the energy to run around conveying msgs. :P
Did our duty till 2 under the scorchy sun,
and boohoo, homed! (:

To take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly, or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen
And we find the reasons why
One step at a time (:

memory 1B?!

2008-08-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

went to 7minusone.blogspot.com,
and I saw this!

PROfile

7minusOne <3
yr 1991
Ex-Queentownians
If you've realised, 7minusOne=6 (:

Revilia
Born: 20 January 1991
Tea: Peach Tea
School: Queenstown Secondary XD
Nickie: Villager
Fav: Potato, cheesecake
My memory space: 4GB

Eunice
Born: 20 April 1991
Tea: Lemon Tea
School: SAJC
Nickie: Zhen Zhen, the spoiltbrat =.=
Fav: Games, manga & my room
My memory space: 8GB

Su-anne
Born: 15 June 1991
Tea: Lemon Barley Tea
School: PJC
Nickie: Bimbo
Fav: Vampire Edward
My memory space: 1KB

Ziyun
Born: 8 August 1991
Tea: Red Tea
School: SP
Nickie: Tofu
Fav: Korean stuff
My memory space: 1MB

Evadne
Born: 12 August 1991
Tea: Iced Tea
School: NAFA
Nickie: bongang, K2
Fav: Dark chocolate, drawing
My memory space: 1GB

Florence
Born: 29 December 1991
Tea: Green Apple Tea
School: NP
Nickie: Shortie not Hottie
Fav: NPCC
My memory space: 1B

MY MEMORY SPACE ONLY 1B NIA!
I GOT SO RETARD MEH?! XD
RahhhH!

>.<

2008-07-29T22:24:00.004+08:00

*RANDOM*
Was comparing with junhao whose life as a CI more kelian >.<
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$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- my life as ci very ke lian
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story- eh! mine's worst okayys!
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ-my modules are failing, area event zhong asst. cood. NDP every sat...
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ- my ming then more ku lor!
$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- okay okay okay
$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- chill
$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- u win u win
$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- okay?
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ - yayy!:DD`
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -I WON!
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ - ^__^
$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- siao sia u
$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- module fail still so happy
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ- hahaha, i super highh today!!
$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- siao kia
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ- rahhh!!
$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- u eat tongkat ali ar?
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ- yupps!!!
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ -i eat tongkat florence
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ- want some?!
¤ ♥[Florence] ♥ ¤ _- Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story -ڊ- ^___^
$$$ATM.D$$$mei lian jian ren- wah siao siao

:DDDD

(:

2008-07-29T21:40:00.004+08:00

Yoyoyo!!!
FINALLY, 2 presentations are DONE!
2 more to go!! ^__^
Had thermodynamics presentation today,
as usual I'm always blur when it comes to
the Q&A part >.<
stuuupid people bombing my group
with absurd questions. XD
rahhh~!

2 more days till IPC lab quiz,
2 more days till submission of PBL report
3 more days till AREA CAMPFIRE!
7 more days for biomol. retest
a couple more weeks till sem exam!

I'm looking forward to the holidays! (:

why..?

2008-07-22T23:32:00.002+08:00

Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean...?
You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see,
but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.
I wish I did not wish so hard..
):

projects!!

2008-07-21T23:46:00.002+08:00

Okayys, here goes again.
I'm gonna start whining about my life.
I'm going BONKERS!
Projects, presentations and upcoming tests.
I need to mug HARD.

Was super stressed out while having our
Thermo project group discussion today.
We're suppose to design a power plant.
Apparently, there was soooo many calculations,
that me and my friend freaked out.

Next was IPC,
4 straight hours of lecture.
you say can die anot? ]:

Perhaps, this wasn't the ideal course for me eh?
Lesson learnt- Never choose a course because
of it's fancy name. xD

Have you ever wanted to talk,
but never really dared?
Or missed that opportunity to
tell them that you cared?
Pretended that it doesnt hurt,
and said that its ok?
And spent each day wishing it'd all just go away?
Acted how you're "supposed to"
so no one knew you cried,
and never let them see how you really felt inside?

I studied! (:

2008-07-21T00:07:00.005+08:00

Woots!
I studied the whole afternoon,
and I'm soooo proud of it. ^__^
Florence rawks! :DDDD

Perhaps keeping myself busy is the best way
to have myself quit thinking of shits.

NDP

2008-07-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

arghh, bad bad day. ):
At first, I was kinda reluctant to go for NDP today,
no mood, was kinda bothered by some thoughts of mine...
haha, but eventually I still went. :P
then blah, blah, blah...
Had the first rehearsal for the day,
So yupps, it was my turn to march.
During the rehearsal,
my mind started to wander off,
reflected alot,
finally decided to 看开
and not to be bothered by some ridiculous stuff. (:
Became quite hyper after the rehearsal. xD
Then HOHO~
after NE Show 3, I did the most ridiculous thing ever.
At first, I wanted to let jy handle the matter,
cause I know if I started scolding,
I confirm 100% plus chop will zao sia de. :P
Soooo, jy started scolding..
I was soooo super uber pissed off by the cadets
attitude.
jiu ren bu zhu de start screaming at the cadets liao.
ROAR~! zao sia until cannot zao sia lor, kns.
Aye, I shall dig a hole and bury my head in.
No face liao..
]:

thoughts :D

2008-07-18T22:46:00.003+08:00

*random thoughts*
Have you ever met someone special to you,
and have made a difference in your life?
Someone whom you look up to,
you respect,
you envy,
and you truly cherish?
Well, I do
She really does inspire me alot. (:

Anywaes, I've just mahlu-ed myself in front of the whole
lecture theatre yesterday. >.<
Upcoming tests and projects are killin' me!
RAHHH!!!
everyone's like starting to mug, and me?
I'm still living off with my happy-go-lucky attitude. XP
*bangs head on table*

Tomorrow's .38 shooting competition.
My shooting have always been kns.
I shall chop the last position! (:
No one is to snatch away from me arhs!! :P

If I asked you to
to take all my dreams
and make them true,
will you?

:D

2008-07-14T23:56:00.001+08:00

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my friend.
In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies,
but the silence of our friends. (:

buay zai!

2008-07-11T22:21:00.003+08:00

Yoyoyo~!
Back from area meeting.
Hiya, as usual, it didnt really turned out well. ]:
screw ups here and there.
I know I haven't been putting much effort
for area events.
It's not my 100% yet,
but i'm trying to unleash it out!
But how? No motivation. ]:
Everyone do stumble and fall at times.
Apparently, I always do!! >.<
WHY, WHY?
Aiya, maybe I'm special mah.
Uniquely BLURR. xP
Aye,世界上最buay zai的CI就是我！！！

I've been so emotionally stressed up
ever since poly-life started.
Hai..
So many commitments,
Unit, Area, HQ, Studies...
Which to priortize?!
If only I can have the best of all worlds... ]:

ROAR!
Florence shall procrastinate no more!
Florence shall have the best of all the worlds!
Florence must be a super duper zai CI!
Florence will pass ALL HER MODULES! [=
This is what I call self-motivation kayys! :D

Maybe we're friends,
Maybe we're more,
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare,
just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby, call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you
I asked around and I heard that you were talking
Told my girl that you thought I was out of your league
What a fool, I got to get next to you
It's five in the morning and I can't go to sleep
'Cause I wish, yeah I wish that you knew what you mean to me
Next to you by Jordin Sparks.
It's been in my head for days,
I'm lovin' it! (:

And this song too! :D
Jay Sean - Maybe (2007) - Jay Sean

Six sisters~!

2008-07-09T01:07:00.003+08:00

WOOTS~!
The SIX SISTERS finally met up! =D
bimbos reunite~!
Yay~
Had a farewell dinner at Dempsey Hill.
Revilia's gonna go back to indo, and then to further her studies in America. ]:
Fatty don't want me liao... >.<
Anywaes, I was super uber hyper throughout! :P
crapped aloot.
TODAY WAS FANTASTIC and MEMORABLE!
Guess what did me and ziyun got revilia for her farewell gift?
A SEXY NIGHTDRESS! xD
wahaha, REVILIA, MUST WEAR IN AMERICA HOR! =D

I'm glad we're there for each other for the past 4 years.
All the problems, secrets, troubles, GOSSIPS we shared with one another.
I want more 'DRUMSTICKS'!!
How we backed each other up.
How I constantly motivate ziyun, revilia and evadne to study. >.<
(by scribbling florence rawks all over your textbooks eh?)
Remember all the crazy times we had?
All the crazy things we did?

REVILIA, EUNICE, SUANNE, ZIYUN, EVADNE!
THANK YOU! ALL OF YOU ARE MISSED~! =)

p.s eunice called me a HOTTIE! xD

no youth day for me?!

2008-07-06T22:13:00.003+08:00

No youth day for me?
No childrens day too?
No fair. sadded. ]:

Got adult day mah?
aye, I'M DESPERATE FOR HOLIDAYS! >.<

shit, I've a sudden craving for laksa.
Queensway's Katong Laksa!
ooooh please just appear right in front of me now...
=D

Mirror Mirror on the wall
Catch me now before I fall
I wish I may, I wish I might
Find the answer here tonight

Reflections!

2008-06-29T00:17:00.002+08:00

I wish I was more prepared for today's NDP.
I guess it was a lesson that I've to learn it the hard way.
It kinda made me realised that I'm too reliant
on the people that have guided me.
When they're gone,
I'm totally lost.
That feeling was so shitty.
I dont wanna go through it again.
I guess it's time for me to be independent.
To step out of my comfort zone, to learn more.

I'm not pissed by the fact that I was shot.
But rather, extremely disappointed in myself.
Am I really that incompetent?
I wish I had the strength to prove you wrong......

stupid

2008-06-23T02:16:00.003+08:00

I'm overwhelmed by my stupidity
It's 2am, and nothing's yet in my brain.
Fuck.

Can't study!

2008-06-22T21:06:00.002+08:00

I SERIOUSLY CAN'T STUDY IN THE AFTERNOON
I'LL EVENTUALLY DOZE OFF >.<

reflections

2008-06-19T03:12:00.002+08:00

Woah, it's 3am in the morning (:
Just finshed conferencing with JunHao, KianHwee and Binhui.
It was soooo damn funny!
Junhao and i was shooting Kianhwee
with stupid/horny jokes.. =)
wahahaha, no one wanna pa-ka with KianHwee! :P
I was laughing throughout the whole conversation

There're so many things running though my mind these days.
been reflecting alot
I've realised, I hadn't been the same old Florence that I used to be
Where's the old me?
I've slackened, I've become of what I feared to be.
I'm easily affected and influenced by changes
I've lost my directions, my drive..
I don't know what to do..
So many thoughts and secrets
bottled up.
Some, I wished I'd never knew...
It's too draining
Give me time to straighten out my thoughts,
and find the old me back.

Kept my tears inside cause I knew if I
started, I'd keep crying for the rest of my life..
I'll fake a smile as I deal with the side effects

Cycling at ECP tomorrow with the NPCC peeps!
Woohoo! (:

I'm Back!

2008-06-17T00:35:00.002+08:00

Yoyoyo!!
I'M BACK FROM
SUNWAY LAGOON!

Anyone miss me?! :D
Oh well, I'm just prolly
asking a retorical question..
I'll bet YOU DO! ^.^

my skin's all red =)

The rides at the theme park was FUN
Sun-tanning was GREAT.
Shopping was FABULOUS!!

and... I'm super uber tired.
Time to re-charge..

Media Interview!

2008-06-11T00:20:00.008+08:00

MEDIA INTERVIEW!!!
ahh!
It's tomorrow!
how, how?!
Uniform's yet prepared.
Still unsure about NPCC history.
Dont really know what to expect.
How? How?!
I'm soooo sooooooo dead >.<
Lets hope the reporters will not throw
me questions that's tough (:
I sure hope I portray myself well enough!
BLESS ME!
=D

K.O liao!

2008-06-07T00:01:00.003+08:00

I'm soooo friggin' exhausted for the past few days.
Hmmm, had biomolecular science common test on wed.
wahlao, study until can die lor.
so many stooopid cheam words to memorise!!
In the end how?!
memorise de, ALL never come out.
those that i didn't really bother de, came out -___-"
kns lors, the paper was out to kill me. ):

BUT, nevermind.
That was not the worst!

On thursday, was thermodynamics
studied sooo hard, memorised all the formulas,
burnt soooo much (midnight) oil!!
In the end how?!?!?!
Once I saw the paper.
I jitao K.O liao...
it was a total waste of my time to study for thermodynamics mans!
it's like there's no difference whether I studied anot.
Not even 1 question was completed fully!
all attempted abit, then stuck liao ):
kihrfkahsdkfhsdkhfkhsakihrfsakdhfkuahsdkfuhsu!!!!!!!!
stooopid paper!!!
Confirm fail until cannot fail liao!
没有拿0分，就可以偷笑了！
stupid STEAM TABLE!

at least, biomolecular science still can macchiam 'ping bong piang!'
thermodynamics arhs, all numbers and calculations...
want to 'ping bong piang' also cannot ):
Super uber stress lor

But on the brighter side.
Kelly, Baoting, Yanci, BinHui, Eric and me went to Kianhwee house
to bake and cook (:
Sengkang leh!!!! sooo far away!
I've never been there before. xP
saw the LRT, reacted like a sua ku
never ride on one before mah! :P

Me, eric and binhui were in charge of muffins (:
baoting, yanci and kianhwee was baking cookies.
kelly and yanci - fried rice
all of us were super unhygienic,
but the food still tasted yummy (:
Damn fun, shall not elaborate. too lazy
Final conclusion- Kelly cannot cut chicken!!! =D

reached home damn late,
and there's still NDP rehearsal tomorrow,
wooohooo, i'll just faint on the spot tomorrow~
Lalalalalala! :D

Procrastination!!!

2008-06-03T20:14:00.002+08:00

I was SUPPOSED to start studying yesterday.
arghhh, i'm just sooooo lazy!!
see larhs, sleep somemore larhs!
Due to procrastination,
Florence have to burn midnight oil for the next 2 days!
Im sooo gonna hate myself.. ):

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I guess this time it really is goodbye

I'm addicted to this song (:

NDP

2008-06-01T21:47:00.005+08:00

Yes, yes YES!
There's no lessons tomorrow!
Yay! (:
at least there's still 1 more day for me to rest.

darn, SP's students are having their holidays liao.
NP's students are still mugging for tests.. ):
hmpf! so unfair!

went for NDP rehearsal at nee soon camp yesterday.
luckily, it wasn't as tiring as last week's. (:
kinda boring, didnt really manage to correct the cadets mistakes
RSM was shouting with the mike,
cant really compete with his voice :P
the experience was totally different from NPAP though
NEXT STOP, MARINA SOUTH'S FLOATING PLATFORM!
( next week's rehearsal venue)
i cant wait to stand on it!!! >,<

BOOYA! I'm marching in SYFOC!
representing Ngee Ann poly.
I shall transform into a noob and march like a blur kuku with my friends (:

Meanwhile, I'll just have to mug hard for my thermodynamics test. :(
soooo many friggin' formulas to memorise.
soooooo little time!
I need to pass all my modules!!!! :D

what am i waiting for?

2008-05-28T22:39:00.004+08:00

I'm waiting,
waiting for something that's not gonna happen....
I hate it when this feeling crawls upon me
every night....
Something's just not right,
it's just too wrong to be right.

COMMON TEST WEEK = Intensive studying!!! ):

Anywaes, I MIRACULOUSLY PASSED MY BIO TEST WITH FLYING COLOURS!!
WOOOSH, I'M GODLY! :D

i miss the past

2008-05-20T23:24:00.006+08:00

I guess people do change.
Be it in a postive or negative way through time.
It's not for me to judge though,
I miss the past of em'
oh well, maybe i'm just jealous?
Through time,
everything changed,
all of us can no longer be like before
Guess this's just the fact that i gotta accept someday, someday... (:

Argh, tests, tests and tests are coming up soon!
HELP ME!!!
guess i gotta befriend BIOMOLECULAR for 2 nights.
gotta only 2 nights to '摸他的低' !!!! >,<
just to get a friggin' PASS for BIOMOLECULAR SCIENCE
no high hopes, just a humble passing grade will do (:
3 more nights to master IPC!
1 more night to master EM1!
And next week's the common tests week!
HOORAY FOR ME, I've yet started studying!!
I'm sooo sooooo dead!
EVERYTHING's just sooo packed!

And and, I've found out something.
We're payin' $1000++ to study for just 8 weeks.
Abit bo hua eh!!! :P

Anywaes, this friday suppose to have Area Campfire.
Haiz, it's postpone till ....
damn, the longer it postpones to,
the more stress i will be accumulating
救命啊！！！
GAH, gotta settle it fast bah.
Lets hope i wont screw up FURTHER
gotta redeem myself for the mistakes i've made. :(

Stressful E-Learning week!

2008-05-17T21:23:00.005+08:00

At last, it's the end of E-Learning week!

I always thought that E-learning will be very slacky. No need to go to school, nor wake up early, no homework, just login to just listen to the 'talks' of boring lecturers.
BUT, to my dismay, IT WAS TOTALLY OPPOSITE!
Damn lecturers posting assignments, quizzes, report writing blah blah online, with stupid deadlines!
-_-"
Everyone was like stressing the whole week tryin' to finish up all the work.
So gan chong larhs!
I'm soooo sooo glad it's all over! ^____^
Gotta 3 days to rest.

Haiz, kinda regretted choosing my course though.
see larh, florence!
Never take bio before in secondary school.
Butt itchy itchy lah!
Go take this machiam stupid course that
has the BIOMOLECULAR word in it.
In the end how?
kana some indian lecturer for the bio module!
cannot even understand anything...
aiyo, florence arhs. you deserve it!
see larhs, if you choose the course in SP better.
no BIOMOLECULER word inside.
SOMEMORE, NO NEED TO CAB DOWN TO SCHOOL ALMOST EVERY SINGLE DAY!
waste $11/12 dollars every single morning.
see larhs, florence arhs..
you're such a wastrel mans!
bai jia zi! :(

On the bright side, my class has been quite entertaining.
Got to know them better. :D
Been opening up more,
being more Crazier! ^___^

Anywaes, kinda dug up some pictures in my aunt's lappy.
Especially, NPCC Annual Day Parade 2008 (April 12) photos.
Kinda reminded me of my contigent,
and the experience of being a contigent commander :)

Look look! the shortie in front! THAT'S ME!
Contigent 1 commander and half of her gang! :D

Contigent 5
Wah, someone so zai arhs! Parade havent start yet
also stand so still.

Haha, I knew she couldn't resist to move! :D

friggin' assessments

2008-04-25T22:03:00.002+08:00

Okay okay..
MIGHTY WEEKEND has finally arrived! =D
Finally, I've been longing for it since monday
Been adapting a lil' to poly-life
but, it still do tire me out every single day =/

Haiz, even though its a weekend,
BLOODY ONLINE ASSESSMENTS are rolling in like no one's business!!!
Argh, cant I have a life?!

and and, I realised something..
I SUCK AT BIO MANS!!
omg omg, during lectures on biology
simply no balls were caught.. -_-"
I'm simply like a retard listening to the WEIRD accent of the lecturers
Oya, did i mention something?
POLY LECTURERS HAVE DIFFERENT KINDA WEIRD ACCENTS!!!!
omg, you can faint upon hearing the accent..!
oh well, i'm gonna suffer for 3 years.. ^__________^

Anywaes, Im soo sooo soooo soooooo happy today..!
shalln't elaborate. lazy to type le!
tata~

Dread poly-life

2008-04-20T22:42:00.003+08:00

Haiz, it's sunday..
which means it gonna be monday tomorrow...
Hmph, poly-life have been real miserable mans
everything just became sooo hectic
having to wake up so darn early
just because my school's just soooo freakin' far away.
travelling from blocks to blocks for lectures under the damn scorchy sun!
feeling soooo miserably cold in classrooms and LTs.
Lectures are soooooo freakin' boring..!
All these really tire me out each and everyday.
Having to just pop back to bed everyday after school,
resulting in no teevee-life for me these recent days ):
I wonder how will I last for the next 3 years....
But, on the bright side, I've made a couple of friends though... (:
its damn irritating larh, each class had only approximately 20 peeps.
and there's only like 6 girls in my class.
So hard to socalise mans, all kinda serious serious de!
I miss my secondary school life..!
Friends were made easily, you can crap almost about everything.
They stick with you through thick and thin..
Hiya, if only time could rewind, I'll cherish every moment of secondary school life. (:

It's time for me to head back to the world of reality and adapt to my life bah.. ):

2008-03-27T01:19:00.004+08:00

(Bow wow)
Dark child
Yes yelling to the lite beat and
It's b-dub and tiffany and
We are in the place to be and
We came in to move your feet and
Get things jumping like there supposed to
Teen magazines were jumping right out the posters
Can't believe what you saying in lip gloss
I know you can't believe she getting older

(Tiffany)
She's just a teen,So how could she
Really know what she wants
I can't believe
You'd think I'd run and tell you're mean to me
When its really like
She mean ain't she...
I know just what you think
You're so stuck in the past
Like stone-washed jeans
And I can endorse
Anything through me
Im flyer then you'd ever thought I'd be...

(Tiffany-pre chrous)
You wonder why im so cold
You coulda been more involved but no
I'm not the girl that you knew before
I can't believe you didn't know
I'm grown

(Tiffany-chrous)
Im grown now
Certified and all that
You say want you want
You cant take a thing from me
Im grown now (oh)
I,I,I'm grown now (im grown)
I'm grown now
Got my own money
You ain't gonna run me
I ain't no dummy
I'm grown now (yea...)
I,I,I'm grown now (grown)

(Tiffany)
I can't believe, they tryna block me
Just to playing them games I thought you'd be
Up in my lead but no you can't compete
Back up don't touch gotta give me 50 feet
Cuz imma on another level
Im bringing things to life like im japetto
This is the last time that im gonna tell you
Im doing it big now, you wanna piece let it go

(Tiffany-pre chrous)
You wonder why im so cold
You coulda been more involved but no
I'm not the girl that you knew before
I can't believe you didn't know
I'm grown

(Tiffany-chrous)
Im grown now
Certified and all that
You say want you want
You cant take a thing from me
Im grown now (oh)
I,I,I'm grown now (im grown)
I'm grown now
Got my own money
You ain't gonna run me
I ain't no dummy
I'm grown now (yea...)
I,I,I'm grown now (grown)

(Bowwow)
Aye tiff yo big brotha got you, its happening
You push one hand to the cloud then back to the wind
Bow and tiff evans is back at it again
Yea ma you grown go on and let you rims spin yea
You got ya lil premires
These 50 lil days go head and let you paint drip (drip)
Tell your parents don't trip
And when ya girls go on ya lil trips
Its your world lil mama its your life to live

(Tiffany-bridge)
Im not those girls your used to dating
I gotta unique situation (ill tell you the truth)
You can travel the world but you'll never find
Someone (that will take care of you)
I'l have you open cuz...

(Tiffany-chrous)
Im grown now
Certified and all that
You say want you want
You cant take a thing from me
Im grown now (oh)
I,I,I'm grown now (im grown)
I'm grown now
Got my own money
You ain't gonna run me
I ain't no dummy
I'm grown now (yea...)
I,I,I'm grown now (grown)
I,I, im grown now

1 MORE DAY TO AREA PROMO :D
but nothing's yet prepared...
I'm so soooo dead.

overwhelmed by boredom

2008-03-23T22:21:00.002+08:00

It's soooo boring today.
I'd even resorted to
playing Toontown today
(The kiddy disney online game)
Not only that,
I cant believe that I'd even
helped my brother to finish up his
homework.
Haiz...

Oh ya, finally got my phone back from that bloody track today (:
Several parts were missing though....
My poor phone... ):

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way
The way I like to have my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Im Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to, who will stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way
The way I like to have my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Im Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?

Someone who wont take for granted
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Bad day

2008-03-22T21:40:00.005+08:00

FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!
Today's really a freakin' horrible day mans!
Woke up @ 330am today,
with only 1.30hrs of sleep,
I prepared my stuff for NPAP training at HTA
HOPING that everything will turn out fine today.
esp. the campcraft girls' team (:
Left home at about 6.15am..
And soon, it was the beginning of my SUPER SUPER bad day!
Was in the MRT, heading to cck.
And fuck, at commonwealth stn,
Suddenly, my wallet and phone slided off my hand for NO apparent reason
Behaved like a ku-ku tryin' to save both my wallet ant handphone
whilst all the Bangalas were like watching at me..
Freaking Mahlu Part 1
WORST, couldn't save my phone
It dropped into the track ( the gap between the train and the platform)
-___________-"
ALL the BANGALAS were looking at me!!!!
FREAKING MAHLU PART 2!!!!!
Omg, was damn pissed and super uber embarrassing larh!
plus, didnt know what to do... -_-"

Hmph, then reached HTA at about 7 plus? :S
Then was the briefing for CIs
Followed by Full dressed training.
Was marking the attendance for my contigent
When i suddenly realised there was only 25 of em'
instead of 40 -_-"
Had my contigent formed at the the unity square
It was sooo freakin' pathetic mans, I could barely form
the outskirts of the contigent.
Panic-ed and behaved like an auntie
running to other contigents
hoping to borrow cadets to fill up
my contigent's empty spaces.
Hmph, after that was component training.
Followed by a rehersal,
Wah piang, during the rehersal,
I couldn't tahan lor,
was on the verge of vomiting and fainting
nearly, wanted to fall out.
But was too embarrassing for CIs to fall out..
didnt want to mahlu myself infront of my cadets
OMG OMG, you should have seen the scene at the unity square
mans!
ALOOT of people fainted lah!
Some injured themselves as they faint..
Omg, freaking scary
Red Cross were like running here and there
saving those unconcious cadets larh...
Was super chaotic mans!
Luckily, didnt mahlu myself.. :P

Hmph, I guess I'm like the only idiot in the whole
Singapore that drops a phone in the bloody track bah.
sucker....
DAMN TODAY!

But at least I'm still proud of the Campcraft team today
You did well guys! ((:

i miss schooling~

2008-03-18T23:41:00.006+08:00

Yo~
Sadly, my life have been mostly revolving around
NPCC this holiday
sob sob
but nevertheless, its rather a well spent holiday
other than its kinda too boring
too lifeless
tooo freakin' long -_-"
I MISS STUDYING,
GOING TO SCHOOL!!
BUT, in a month time,
I'd be schooling~
YAY!!!! (:

Hmph, tomorrow's NPAP training
Wala~ It's gonna be another busy day tomorrow
No need to rot at home! ((:
Gonna be running around the unity square
using my boots to point for my contigent on the point to turn
Gonna be running around correcting
my contigent's mistakes
Shouting at my contigent
Motivating them! (:
Marching with my contigent with my 'Swagger Stick' (:
Please, I hope I will not commit any mistakes....
I pray I pray that i will not be shoot.
Lets hope that my contigent will do a great job tomorrow eh! (:

Haiz, high chances that
I'd be pangseh-ing the NPCC peeps tomorrow
to celebrate baoting's birthday. Sorry!
Hope the debrief will end early tomorrow
so that I can rush down (:
Gonna start preparing my uniform le
Tata~

This town is colder now
I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move
I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands just take the wheel
Every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be

Ohhh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags I never thought I could
Steady feet don't fail me now,I'm a run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out, and I'm standing down.

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
But I've become what I can't be

Whoa!!!
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see?

Lifeless

2008-03-18T02:00:00.004+08:00

OMG, I'm sooo freakin' awake and bored!
Just conference-d with the NPCC peeps. (:
I NEED TO GET A LIFE!
And I'm starting to miss the times
I mugged for the Os
wish that poly-life can start soon :D
PLEASE..? (:
I wanna start mugging
I miss mugging~
Oh god, am I crazy or what? :S

有多少人在旁边
我们都视而不见
彼此却忍不住地看几眼
感觉强烈

一句微笑的方便
已经暗示到极限
没勇气的人犹豫的瞬间
幸福就飘过面前

我平凡无奇
而你像灿烂星星
让我担心

明明很爱你
明明想靠近
但是你的身边有人捧花总是拥挤
我凭什么一一打败情敌
敢大声说要做你的唯一

明明很爱你
明明想靠近
为什么还要再浪费时间不把你抱紧
攻真心才是最厉害的武器
我会拼命让你更满意

讲配不配太俗气
说爱不爱要问起
爱由我们自己决定
不必理跌破谁的眼镜

Wala~ I'm into chinese songs! ((:

Survivor Camp

2008-03-17T01:59:00.005+08:00

Heyy peeps!
Just woke up the "rest" I had
after the Survivor Camp Preparatory Course. (:
Went to this course today @ Pulau Ubin.
8.30am-5.30pm
Hmph, in the morning, we settled down in our groups at the Changi Jetty
before we proceed on to Ubin
Jinyuan- Grp 1
Me- Grp 2
ChoyPeng- Grp 3
-_-" (all different groups)
lol, then JinYuan came and joined my group secretly. :P
Omg, I cant describe how hilarious and LAME our group was.
There's one girl. named 'something'haha,
that was in our group thats super lame larhs.
Everything that comes out of her mouth was super uber hilarious..!
She was like the source of entertainment in our group,
super funny lor
Had treasure hunt game at the beginning
Then lunch-ed
(waaaa, first time I had such great food in the campsite!
packet food. No cooking at all ^__^)
Followed by shelter building
Jetty Jump! (Didnt participate though :P )
and Survival Cooking
During survival cooking,
it was only my group that didnt manage to start a fire. :P
So mahlu...!
Hmph, lastly.. Shower Time~
Then home-d
Lol, initially wanted to watch Sharks Tale on chnl 5.
But couldn't tahan le, fell asleep (:
yupps, and now I'm WIDE awake + HUNGRY+ Freaking Bored!
):

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful,
that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me,
I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love,
he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into...
Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see.

Yay, I've got a new lappy! (:

2008-03-15T20:35:00.002+08:00

Helloo peeps~!
I'm sooo freakin' happy,
I've just bought a new laptop! ^_____^
YAY!!!

It's sucks when I initiated
to call you yesterday.
It truely sucks!
Batt flat. Aint that a GREAT excuse?

never be replaced (:

2008-03-03T22:12:00.002+08:00

Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me too
Until the end of time
From the day I met you
I know we've be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to feelings of your kisses

I can say I'm truely happy till this day.
You make me thank God that I live my life every day.
There's never been a doubt in my mind that I'd regret ever having you by my side.
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know,
Enjoyed everday that I spent with you and I will miss you cause I'm happy that I had
You at all.

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I feel for you yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

omg, im sooooooo friggin' addicted to this song! (:

aching muscles!

2008-03-02T15:27:00.006+08:00

Yo peeps!
Omg, aloota things happened yesterday..
Firstly, in the morning..
After having me to wait anxiously
at the holding area for several hours,
the campcraft com. was POSTPONED..!
Argh, damn the rain!!
But on the brighter side,
you girls still have another week to improve eh? (:
Hmph, then i rushed home and changed
before meeting the NPCC peeps at anchorpoint. (:
(lol, we were all friggin' late except kiankiat :P)
Had lunch at Jack's Place,
managed to prank junhao..! ^________^
(My greatest acheivement of the day!)
Wahahaha..!
Added aloota salt into my cup of tea,
and passed it to him.
Lol, after jh 'savoured' the first sip of the tea,
his face expression immediately changed..
And we couldn't help but start laughing...
then, the super naive binhui
went on to have a sip of the tea..
In a split second,
he puked directly on the table
(tsk tsk, sooo uncivilised!) :P
After having our meals,
we waited for baoting..
before we head down to East Coast to cycle..!
Omg omg, luckily uncle scorpion didnt acknowledged
kian kiat mans!
If not we'll be cycling for 3 hours instead of 2..
Although the 2 hours of cycling was soooo fun,
but it was super uber tiring.. (:
causing all of us to suffer from muscle cramps
EXCEPT FOR MR TAN KIAN KIAT! (:
Hahaz, then we took a bus to head down to marine parade for dinner
Lol, kian kiat and binhui were super unlucky on the bus lah..
Their ez-link was confiscated..
Hmph, after dinner, we went shopping for awhile..
Kianhwee, Binhui and me was sooo friggin' kuku lors..
we saw someone playing the 3D threatre at the arcade,
and we were like bending down and
tilting our heads here and there
just to see how the 3D threatre was like.. -__-"
Next, we headed for startbucks to have a drink,
before heading home.
Binhui, eric, kiankiat and me took 196..
while we were reminiscenting of how naive and stupid (esp. Binhui ^^) we
were during primary school during the bus ride
it was soo damn fun..
After alighting at buona vista,
Kiankiat and me shared a cab home (:
Argh... all the running and shouting of the NPAP training and cycling
had made my muscle ache like hell..!!! ):

The moment that you've called me today,
I really wanted to just rush down and be there for you
but something's just holding me back..
Sorry...

Maybe...one day...

2008-02-28T21:28:00.006+08:00

Hey hey!
I'm back from campcraft com's training.
Probably my last training with em'
Before they excel and make a name for
Quest NPCC (I hope..)
hehe ^__^
Omg, this training is by far the most tedious training
for me..
I had to sub. amanda and HAD TO PEG.. -__-"
After a few rounds of pegging, my hands and legs went
literally weak..! And worst, i felt dizzy!
Hmph, maybe that's the outcome of not exercising frequently :P
Anywaes, through the many trainings for the campcraft com.
I can clearly see that the girls are more bonded than ever..
And maybe this is where I felt the greatest sense of satisfaction
came from (:
From girls that's frequently pon-ing trainings,
To becoming a team with super uber high morales that motivates one another
^__^

I'm pretty demoralised by the conversation that I had with my CIs today.
Perhaps, maybe.. one day.. I'll be as demoralised as them..
Maybe after a year or two? :S
I'd still remember the big dreams I had before I entered CIBTC
Perhaps, its just impossible to acheive......

I feel sooo deceived by someone recently
and it sucks big time..! fcuking liar.
Maybe i shouldn't place too much faith and trust in
that person from the beginning....

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me
You'd be around
Uh huh That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrongI know better'
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when
We were such fools
And so convinced
And just too cool
Oh no, No no.
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now'
Before they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kissI'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keepYour memory
You visit me in my sleep

My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My Darling
Who Knew

Nice song! (:

Insomnia

2008-02-13T02:39:00.000+08:00

It's like 2.40am in the morning,
and i still can't sleep..!
Oh my.., it's been happening for several days.
Am i having insomnia lately? :S
Anywaes, i'm soooo freakin' bored that i've decided to blog
Life's after cny have been quite mundane though
Wake up, NPCC, Dinner, home-ed, sleep..
The same old routine.. ):
GOD, im practically a walking zombie! Argh..!
Gotta change to a healthier lifestyle mans! (:
Okayys, it's 13 feb today.
1 more day to Valentine's Day
andd
6 more days to the release of PAE results...!!
Omg, i'm seriously looking forward for 19 feb to arrive fast.
Oh God..
Please, i pray i pray to get into BMS.... (:

Here's a lovely story that I've kope-ed from friendster
Pretty Touching.. (:

As I sat there in English class,I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so-called 'best friend'.
I stared at her long, silky hair.
I wished she were mine, but she didn't notice me like that.
And I knew it.
After class she walked up to me
and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before,
and I handed them to her.
She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why.
11th Grade...
The phone rang. It was her on the other end.
She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, a Drew Barrymore movie,and three bags ofchips,
she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me, said 'thanks,' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,but I'm just too shy.And I don't know why.
12th Grade...
The day before prom she walked tomy locker.
'My date is sick,' she said.
He's not going to go.
Well,I didn't have a date and in 7th grade we made a promise that
if neither of us had dates we would go together just as 'best friends,' so we did.
Prom night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front doorstep. I stared at her.
She smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that,and I know it.
Then she said, 'I had the best time,thanks!' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
Graduation Day...
A day passed. A week passed. Amonth passed.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma.
Iwanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat,
and she cried as I hugged her.
Then, she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, 'You're my best friend,thanks!'
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
A Few Years Later...
Now, I sit in the pews of the church.
She is getting married,now.
Iwatched her say, 'I do' and drive off to her new life, married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that,and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said, 'You came!' She said, 'thanks!'and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
Funeral...
Years pass, and I looked down at the coffin of the girl who used to be my best friend.
At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he were mine.
But he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it.
I want to tell him.
I want him to know thatI don't want to be just friends.
I love him, but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me...i wish I did too...i thought to myself, and Icried.

The inside of one's heart...

2008-02-12T03:00:00.002+08:00

If you look inside a girl's heart
You'd see how much she really cries
You'll find hidden secrets, bestfriends, and lies
But what you'll see the most
Is how hard it is to stay strong
When nothings right and everything is wrong.

My First Bloggy Post~ =D

2008-02-06T18:08:00.000+08:00

Ooyeah~
It's the first post of my bloggy!
I created this blog all by MYSELF, what a great sense of acheivement! *giggles*
It's Chinese New Year Eve, and i can't wait to get my hands onto those AngBaos tomorrow
Money, money and money! =D
Hmph, will be catchin' a midnight movie with the NPCC peeps, kianhwee, kiankiat and binhui. (Ah Long Pte Ltd)
Gosh, im like so beat now..! Due to the fact that i ended my spring cleaning @ 4am today. -_-"
( My room's sooooo freakin' clean now. =D )
Guess what?! I've just realised the hidden motive of my dad's
Dad: Siying, you got enough money to go out anot?
Me: Not really. But, i guess i can make do with it.
Dad: Yar... ( passes me a $50 note)
Me: Huh? Dun want larhs. You've been giving me alot of $50 notes this week ( $300 to be exact)
Dad: Take it larhs. Next time you know hor, you earn money le, must give me $50 notes instead of $2 or $10 notes hor! -_____-"
Hoho~ so now i now the reason behind the Big Bucks! ^_^
Ookayys, my cousins have finally arrive..!
Gotta go and GAMBLE.. ((: